I don't know what to feel anymore. I've been fighting, acting like I'm all right, trying to be the good guy, trying to be the nice guy but no. Nothing seems to work, even when your just so fucking nice.

If these assholes get all the fun, the love, the fame, and the company then fuck this.

Who is this nice guy? Fuck him, he ain't here no more.


Kills me still whenever your upset, saddens me when your troubled, and bothers me when your frustrated.

I just want to be your guardian angel no more no less. Sorry I still care but your smile means the world to me.




Hush, just keep on training and studying. One day it'll pay off, just don't talk because nothing seems to go wrong when you say nothing.







I'm set on fire, I'm ready to take the challenges, to break down barriers, and to achieve something new everyday. To be the best I can be.

Sadly, everyday as I wake up I still can't help but think about you. These dreams about you for the past 8 days have been killing my mind but I'll survive.


Don't bother worrying whether I'll bother you or still trying to go after you cause I've given up finally. I'm happy if your happy even if it means me not talking to you. I guess thats love for you. Wanting to see someone you care about happy even if it doesn't mean your with her.

P.S Life like that, we just got to take it as it is.


I'm trying to change for the better. Old habits die hard though.

Feeling so weak, trying to hang on. That hope I saw in continuing is fading again.

P.S To that guy out there, take care of her whoever you are. She's special and wonderful in every way.


Don't get me wrong. I am only staying because of somethings someone told me. I was touched. So I am staying.




I don't think you really know me. So don't come fucking around with me like you do.


Cough go away, I can't do alot with you around. Annoying.

"Somethings take time I guess. I hope."


I was never like this. So gentle, so caring, so full of worries, and full of paranoia. I was a kid who studied, danced, and had fun with his brothers no matter what it was. I really never cared but now I do. What happen to me really? I would look at all life challenges and take it just like that. J was right, I think too much. I should just appreciate what I have now.

Sorry if I'm a bit rush or too rush on stunts. I just really want to be able to accomplish the stunts. Its just me. Like my dance, I keep working on it everyday, every time, whenever I can. Sorry if I was a bit fierce or pushed you. I apologize.

"You look so cute in that make up and when you smiled you look wonderful. I gave up already, so don't worry. I don't feel that I'm worth, your out of my league. But to see you smiling at the end of the day. I feel thats worth it."

I'm dying but moving on.