"It is just another infatuation, nothing more than that. Don't get yourself distracted by a......wonderful person like her...Damn..why must I meet her at the wrong time?"

This thought often comes to my head whenever I see her in a photo or sms. Sometimes I just wonder, what would it be like if I was with her. What would it be like to be her precious one and she mine. Problem about me being me, is that I tend to not be able to focus when she steps into my mind. I know now being the O level year I got to concentrate, I got to score that 9-points I so badly want to get, I got to bring out the best of potential out of me. I know I can do better, but why must she keep bugging my head?

"Insane" that is the word that I use to describe myself. "Berserk" is what I go into if I can't get something done. "Confused" is what I am now. "Answers" are what I am looking for. "Blur" is what I am during school.

These are just some of the things that I go through day to day. I hope that one day my efforts of become a more disciplined, focus, and down to Earth person would soon be achieved. Only then I would no need to worry and be so frustrated, but then she would still be in my mind.....

I know I am not good enough for her or anyone, so she would most probably say 'n-o' and not talk to me. I know that I am not as bright as I would like to be, so I can probably forget about going after her. For she is so smart in my dictionary, she is so hardworking in my opinion, and that is something that is hard to find in a girl.

And yet I still can't forget about you.....

Fine I will pull up my socks,

I will be that disciplined, focus, and down to Earth person I aim to be,

I will be that smart enough person,

I will be that good dancer I am,

I will be your precious one....

But until I achieve that,

I just got to keep on trying......