I don't know how to put this feeling, but I feel that sometimes I really just want to beat myself up. Dumb, vulgar, and rough, why the HELL am I like that? I seem to be screwing things up without even knowing it.

Fuck larh.....

There are many parts of this puzzle that is missing, I feel that there are a few Important missing pieces. You are the most important piece. Yet I can't seem to find you. I ain't obsess about you, I am just losing confidence in myself rapidly and I fear that I will lose you.

Fear. This fear is so strong to the point where it can make me scared and paranoid.

I am saying nonsensical things.

I got a wonderful best friend I dare say.

I think I am a bit out of my mind now, I think I will sleep it off.

GOD I feel so frustrated and angry with myself.


Bloody heck. Why can't I just tell you?

Shit Arthur get a hold of yourself. Your losing your mind.